Refusing to grow old...

As a gamer, I think one of the things that has had a significant impact in the way I view life... is the fact that I refuse to grow old.

Not in the bad, "I refuse to mature and take on responsibility" way, but rather in the way that refuses to forget the power and majesty of play and the imagination.

One of the most appropriate things I've found that's trying to espouse this same ideal is the new Johnny Depp movie... Finding Neverland.

Aimless until I saw the star...

It's Christmas again, and I find myself in a different life once again.

For one thing, I'm now working for a different corporation, and I'm back to a normal day shift. I'm working to build a long term career, and I'm going to be travelling to places I've never been to. I feel like a bottle of oil and water that's been shaken up... badly.

I admit it... I'm a creature of habit and routine, and now I'm still in the process of sorting things out.

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Growing old is freaky, I feel like I'm being accelerated through a tunnel moving along the hypercube of time. I'm sitting perfectly still, and I'm still getting nauseous.

I get this feeling whenever I'm about to embark on another chapter of my life.

I guess I sound crazy when I talk like this, but that's really how it is. If I was ever attuned to the Sphere of Entropy (in Mage-speak), then this must be how sensing destiny might be. And if my gut feel is right, I'm in for one heck of a ride.

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Now for the good part. Looking out into the night on my way home, the countless parol that hung from everywhere served as the koan that woke me up from my daze.

The Star

I must have looked really stupid, staring out from the overpass on top of the MRT in Quezon Avenue, looking at the string of stars that led off into the horizon. Perhaps it was my Catholic upbringing, but the Christmas Star was a reminder that no matter how utterly displaced I was... there was guidance from someone Greater.

There was hope.

There was someone making sure that I was okay.

Top anime on my wishlist....

if there was an anime that I'd love to have a complete copy of, it would be the Heroic Legend of Arislan, an old anime that came out quite some time ago (around the early nineties, I think.) Arislan centered on the saga of a young prince who lost his kingdom, and accompanied only by his loyal vassal, and a group of loyalists and friends, fights to reclaim the throne that was lost to him.

It's a very cool anime that's composed of only 6 or so volumes, including a movie-length first episode. The characters are compelling, the artwork superb, and the music is exotic, lending much to a very different kind of fantasy setting, that is at once familiar... without being stale.

There are no orcs, or dwarves or even elves in this anime, just humans, and it is the uniquely human aspects of the characters that make them so interesting to watch. Of course, one can always expect slight exaggeration in how well the characters do stuff, but hey, it's all part of a fantastic show.

Hoo-hah!

Right... this is what I usually do every sunday. I take up arnis a bit and try to keep myself somewhat active, especially after sitting around the office all week.

Hasn't helped much if you notice the belly.

I gotta do something about that. :p